Love God. Love others.
That’s what it’s all about, right?
On Saturday I had it all figured out.
I did enjoy a couple of lovely days of rest. Calming the impending anxiety by telling myself that I was loved by God and it was ok not to be productive.
Remembering that loving others doesn’t have to be complicated. It’s being kind, serving, speaking life to, and just enjoying my “neighbor”.
Reading an especially poignant blog post about who my “neighbor” really is was the icing on the joy cake that I was gobbling up over the weekend.
And, as so often happens, something shiny caught my attention and led me down a rabbit trail.
I was still loving. Still resting for a while. Just thinking about this shiny enticement. Well, maybe doing a little “research” so I would know the right move to make when the time came.
Then “working up a few ideas”.
You know, “just for fun”.
“Just in case.”
The shiny thing was someone’s perspective on the blog traffic I’m currently getting. How it could potentially be fairly profitable. How I could really take the bull by the horns and make it something special.
I guess the good thing is that I already think it’s something special. All the Pinterest traffic notwithstanding.
This blog is special to me because I love it. It brings me joy. It’s a creative outlet. It has connected me to gobs of amazing women.
It’s a place for me. I can tinker around with how it looks. I can pour my heart and soul onto its pages.
I can ignore it for a week.
The seemingly elusive idea that this blog could become something BIG is an idea that I love and fear.
I love it because cooking is a passion of mine and I get so happy when people make my recipes and feel more confident cooking for themselves and their families. I also love it because the journey I’m on in my walk with God has been so life-giving to me and if any of my own experiences and stories could help or encourage anyone else, I’d consider that the greatest reward of all.
I fear it because I feel so ignorant about the business side of blogging. It’s like all the other bloggers know what to do with ads and search engine optimization and everything and, try as I might, I just can’t seem to get a handle on all of it.
I’m a smart girl! I have a college degree and there are some aspects of blogging that just confuse the HECK out of me.
Maybe there’s a secret internet where they get all their questions answered.
This idea led me on a rabbit trail that included the thought that I should re-design my blog. I started believing that no one would take my recipes seriously if they visited my site and saw birds on a branch instead of pots and pans.
There are 23,677+ pins of my most popular recipes that tell me I’m wrong.
There’s also my gut that tells me to take things one step at a time. Keep posting recipes I love because it brings me joy. Keep writing the things God is showing me because it’s good for me to see them in black and white and maybe they could help one other person.
Forget the re-design for now. I can do it in a month or six months or a year or never.
I don’t think my blog looking like this:
or something professionally designed and WAY BETTER those mock-ups of mine will make that much difference right now.
So I’m stepping away from my obsessive clipart searches and graphic designer wannabe sessions and taking a deep breath.
I’m walking back to the main road from the deep rabbit trail and soaking up all the things around me.
The little ordinary sights around here that are NOT glowing from a computer screen.
Rabbit trails aren’t the worst thing that could happen, but they are a distraction from our present lives. From the things God is saying to us and from the people around us.
At least they are for me. I tend to take off running and don’t even think about where I’m going until I’m figuratively doubled over and out of breath. Wondering why I’m exhausted and irritable.
Yeah, no thanks. I’ll stay right where I am and follow the blog growth as I feel led to instead of hunting it down like prey.
For now I’m going to notice the things in my actual life. The little things like these…
I love that bringing the camera out to practice has resulted in documentation of our everyday life.
More highly random photos comin’ at ya, I’m sure :)