Written on Thursday, March 8th.
That’s the only way I can describe how I’m feeling these days.
I put in my notice at work on Monday and I’ve been on an emotional roller coaster ever since.
I’m up…
Finally a stay at home mom!
Just in time for summer!
Long time dream come true!
So much extra time!
Crafts, cooking, cleaning, helping others!
Then I’m down…
But I love my company!
But I love my boss!
But I’m great at what I do!
But I love the challenge!
Am I making a mistake?
Will I end up lazy and depressed after the excitement wears off?
Ya’ll, I’m feeling like a crazy person.
The up and down cycles are hour by hour sometimes. This transition is all I can think about. I’m totally obsessing over it.
Who will fill my position? How will the training go? What will life without a job be like? How will I create order and routine in my life? How do I stay “current”? Does being “current” even matter?
Ultimately I know this is the right decision for our family. This is truly what I’ve always wanted and longed for. I believe that families are blessed to have the wife/mother primarily in the home.
I’m excited at all that I’ll be able to do with the 40+ hours a week that will be freed up! All the projects around the house, and the gardening, and the relationships I’ll be able to nurture.
All the time with Grace. Just being with her and also teaching her and exploring with her.
I really think it’s going to rock my socks off, but the transition period is giving me heart palpitations.
I’m equal parts thrilled and terrified.
Deep breaths. It’s going to be ok.
The dust is going to settle. I’m going to find a new normal.
And, I’m going to rock the socks off of Gould, Inc!
When is the transition taking place? I'm so excited for you!!!!
You will do great and try not to hang on the “what ifs”..Hang onto the all the new possibilities. I'll be praying for the transition for you. Love you!
This is awesome! I can only imagine that it will be super tough to say goodbye to a job that you love but I can tell you that in a few short weeks you will realize what an amazing time you will have being home with Grace that you will be 100% glad that you did! :) Good luck to you & Andy & Grace as you start a new chapter. I am sure it will be amazing!! :)
WOW I had no idea I missed this post!!! Congrats! Being a stay at home has just as many challenges as a “job” but it is the BEST thing in the world. We would love a play date!!!!
You will LOVE being home, dear Rebecca, and I already know that God created you to be that stay-at-home person. I loved being a stay-at-home Mom and I made it my full-time job, even though I had someone ask me if “that was all I do!” It's the best job in the world. So proud of you and the person you are. Maybe you and Grace will even have a chance to come visit in Fowlerville?!!