Is it worth it?

So, I’m trying to figure out if it’s really worth it for me to write this book. I have a lot that I want to say, and part of me would really like to even have an unpublished memoir for my kids and grand kids someday, but I tend to lose steam with this whole thing when I start to think about the book never getting published. I think in order for it to really be good, I’d have to really open up and spill my guts and part of that freaks me out. On the other hand, I think I tend to be equally scared of failure and success, so putting it off just keeps me in the comfort zone of complacency. Fortunately I have an accountability partner who keeps me moving forward; even it it’s just baby steps.

In other news…work has been really, really busy lately. Part of me loves this because the day goes by SUPER fast and I have a feeling of accomplishment at the end of each day. Part of me is overwhelmed because it’s been tough to keep up with everything. Part of me just gets antsy…wishing I could spend my days doing other stuff. I’m working on being thankful that I’m still employed.

Andy continues to look for a job. He’s been laid off for a while now but thanks to unemployment and some side work, things are going ok. He’s recently been contemplating some big life changes, so we’re really praying hard about where to go from here. I’m nervous about how it will all work out, but at the same time it seems like there may finally be a light at the end of the tunnel.

Spring is finally starting to peek it’s head through the gloom and I’m really excited for the warm weather. I want to spend more time in my garden and on my patio this year. Each year has been a little better than the one before, so I can’t wait to see how many things I won’t kill this year!

We have a guy coming to the house tomorrow evening to give us a quote on re-finishing our hardwood floors, so I’m crossing my fingers that we like the guy, his work, and the price. I would be thrilled to finally have nice floors!

That’s all I can afford to write here…the book is calling and my friend will scold me if I don’t meet my quota!