I wish I would have been the one to coin the phrase, but alas I did not. I actually happened upon it about a year and a half ago when I stumbled upon a website called quarterlifecrisis.com. It’s basically a website where 20 somethings ramble and complain about the weird crash that seems to accompany this chapter of life. It’s too early to be a midlife crisis….that comes at about 50, so 25 is the perfect time for a quarter life crisis. It probably shouldn’t be a crisis at all since we are all young enough to get up and create the life we want to be remembered for. I suppose that’s still possible at age 50 but is significantly more daunting I’m sure. By 75 I better be at the point in my life that I know God and myself well enough to avoid any and all possible crises.
So, here I am. Twenty-five years old and in crisis. Who am I really? What do I like? What are the things I wish I’d done already? Can I still do them? I’ve described it to several people in the following terms: It’s like a carwash….the kind at which you pull your two front tires over those things on the conveyor belt and they just move you along through the brushes and giant mop heads and soap and wax spitters, etc. You pull up and get onto the moving belt and then you’re moving right along. You aren’t pushing on the gas petal, you can’t use the break, you’re stuck in neutral and you are moving along the course. What if you suddenly change your mind and don’t want a carwash? Is there anything you can do about it? You might be able to get out of your car and run, but then there’s the issue of the water, and soap and giant moving parts. It’s dangerous to leave.
All that to say that I’m feeling like my life is on a course and I’m not sure it’s the one I dreamed or imagined. I hope it’s the one that God wants me to be on, but I’m not even sure I spent enough time discussing it with Him. Maybe this feeling is a wake up call from Him. Maybe this is how He’s getting my attention so that I really make some changes in my life. I’m not sure.
If you are a prayer, pray for me.