Well, I just finished my little birthday hiatus and I’m back to real life. I really enjoyed the break that I had. It was awesome to have my sister in town and to be out of the office for 3 days.
Ellen arrived late Saturday night and just left this morning. We had a lot of fun shopping, going to the pool and just chillin out. I hope that she enjoyed herself. I think this birthday affected me differently than any before. Maybe it’s because 25 is something of a milestone…I can officially rent a car now and I’m safely out of my “early twenties.” Normally I wake up on my birthday and I automatically feel special. This year was different. I woke up at noon (much later than I wanted to!) and already felt like I had wasted a good chunk of my special day. Then it took us a while to get motivated to leave the house and we had to go pick up my car from the mechanic (not fun). We ended up shopping and then heading home for dinner. Nothing was particularly bad about the day, it just wasn’t like the birthday’s of my youth. I think I have to move forward and start developing new expectations for my birthday.
I really enjoyed spending time with Ellen. I think I might have come across as being hard on her a few times. She was on vacation from her insane work schedule and just wanted to rest. I think I judged that as being lazy and probably told her that too many times. I just have a hard time relaxing when the house is a mess. It’s something I need to get over. She is SO much more important to me than a tidy house. I never want to jeopardize the feelings of someone I love so much just for the sake of my own dysfunctions. I hope she knows that I love her tremendously and if anything I just want to be more like her and let the unimportant things roll off my back.
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It’s so interesting how our focus changes as we get older and birthdays take on a new meaning. Gone are the days when we wake up and the entire universe revolves around us just because it’s our birthday. But now are the days when we can chose to be with whoever we want and do whatever we want and just simply be us.
Happy birthday, a few days late. By the way, I totally agree with Doug’s blog about you!
I will make sure that Ellen reads this one Bec, I know that she will appreciate it. She loves you sooo much. I am so blessed that first of all I have the best kids in the world, but that you all love each other and desire to be together… I miss you… Love you, Mom