How has almost a week gone by since my last post?!
Things seem to be moving so fast lately and also so slow. It’s like I’m stuck in the twilight zone.
Part of me just wants the summer to hurry up and get here. Warm weather, swimming, barbecues, Andy in school, Grace and I at home, a whole new life. It seems like it’s never going to get here.
But, when I think of how three years have passed since we even started this journey, I see how fast it really has gone.
Just this afternoon I got a little sad. I’m going to miss work. Not so much the chaos of the weekly grind, but the people. I spend more time with these people than with my extended family or closest friends.
We talk on the phone everyday, we email, we Google chat, we eat lunch together. It’s like a new boyfriend, only it’s a four and a half year relationship and we’re all paid to be involved…lol.
I feel completely bipolar about the whole situation. I’m vacillating from high to low about it on a sometimes hourly basis.
I keep trying to process it and compartmentalize it and get comfortable with the idea, but it all seems so surreal.
My path is going to fork in a new direction come June and I’ll be charting new territory. All my work BFFs will go on without me and I’ll go on without them. It’s enough to make me tear up just writing it.
The awesome thing is that my sister has officially accepted the offer to fill my position.
I cannot think of a better person for the job…believe me, I tried!
She’s got the work ethic, creativity, personality, charm, intelligence and pure gumption that it takes for such a dynamic and pivotal role. She’s gonna knock it outta the park and I get to train her how to do it.
I won’t have to awkwardly build a relationship with a stranger while tying to figure out their learning style. I won’t have to guess if they are understanding what I’m saying. I won’t have to be afraid of boring them. I’m training my little sister.
We have a relationship and I know her learning style. I’ll know when she’s “getting it” and when I’m not making any sense to her. I’ll definitely bore her but she’ll just have to grin and bear it because I’m the big sister. It’s gonna be awesome :)
I think the whole training thing will help ground me and give me something to focus on other than how incredibly emo I feel about this transition. It’ll be the ultimate distraction and such a great challenge.
I guess it’s ok to be sad. It’s normal to feel like I’m losing something really wonderful. I know what a good thing I’ve had, and I’m incredibly happy to be passing it on to someone I love so much.
I think these two were destined for each other and I can’t wait to see all the good that comes from this.
Plus, I won’t have to completely cut the cord. It’s not like I’ll ever really be gone.
::insert evil laugh::
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Ditto Rebecca to what your Mom said. It's all good…just like God!
Girl, I see God's hand totally in this situation!!! I am so proud of you for doing what you did for your family, they need you in a different role now. It really is a win-win with Ellen taking your position too! All I have to say is that God is amazing!!!
I got emotional reading this! So much is changing and you'd have to be a rock (or me three years ago lol) not to feel such conflicting emotions. I'm so glad someone you trust so much, and almost as awesome as you, is filling your shoes! What a journey this has been, and it feels like we are just getting started…guess we better buckle our seat belts ;)