I am well overdue in posting here on my beloved pink blog. Lately I’ve been in one of my hermit moods….the kind of mood that makes me just want to hide out or run away to a deserted island. I’m not particularly upset about any of my life circumstances. I’m just expressing my very introverted side. Most people would mistake me for an extrovert, but I am actually a highly introveted person when it all boils down. I enjoy my fair share of socializing, and I’m pretty talkative and outgoing in the midst of it, but there comes a time when I’m ready to hide out for a while and recuperate. I’ve even been shying away from my blog because it has felt like posting would be as difficult as polite conversation is when I’m in this mood.
I’ve read tons of great books over the past two years. Not just senseless novels, but books that have really helped me to learn and grow and become more of the person I was meant to be. Several of these books have taught me that I have control over my moods and my attitude. This actually came as a surprise to me…I always thought that if I woke up crabby that I was destined to be crabby all day. Never in my wildest dreams did I think I could decide to have a good attitude and actually do it! This concept has really affected me. I have had fewer crabby and pessimistic days than I ever used to. So, I’m thinking that this principle would apply to hermit moods too. Not that there’s anything wrong with needing some quiet alone time here and there, but my hermit phases take that concept to a whole other level. When I get this way I just want to eat and sleep and shirk all responsibility. Not to mention my couch potato tendency that rears it’s ugly head. And I know that the last thing I should be doing is filling my head with all the garbage on TV.
I think I may be nearing the end of my current run as a hermit. Maybe that has something to do with the fact that I’ve been hermitting for about a week already or maybe it’s that I’m ready to push through it to do what I have to do. Or maybe it’s that I’m attending a get together with some friends tomorrow night and can’t exactly show up as a hermit. Who knows….for now I’ll just be glad it’s over.
I can totally relate Rebecca, there is nothing like some good ole time alone… I did find your blog since I have been home from work. It probably had something to do with the fact that I am such a creature of habbit, the blog was so easy to get to from work, and wow just as easy from home, arn’t I pitiful! I love you so much, Mom
I know how you feel with the whole hermit thing. I fel that way sometimes when I have to think about something without getting any familiar feedback. Sometimes I feel that way when I just need to know that I exist outside of simply my interactions with other people. When you are always around people you begin to wonder, “if it was just me in a room would anyone be there?”
I believe you that you are an introvert of sorts…you are probably a lot like me – you like people but get charged up when you have time to yourself to do some processing and learning and sometimes grieving for the things life has never given…or taken away. Those thoughts need to be had alone.
Anyway, I am glad you are on your way back…I need a salty dog ;)
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